6:51pm

I got that summertime, summertime sadness
S-s-s-summertime, summertime sadness

A ce moment, je deteste l'angoisse de ceux qui m'entourant. Mere, pere, les collègues. Tout le monde. I can't listen to any more whining or yelling.

I am gaining indifference and indifference is dogging me. I'm not angry or depressed, I'm just tired of hearing about it. My sympathy reserves for others have nearly dried up. Fontana, a notable example, has taken to yelling and illogically accosting even more than her usual. Dad is a dick. Mom is... understandably selfish, though through no fault of her own, it still stings. Orch is thoroughly on Dad's side. Orch also will not listen to my work gossip/complaints/info because she cannot bear to hear anything negative about my psychotic boss. (Psycho is also Jarrett's mom. Orch also has no idea what she's talking about.)

Nobody's listening to anyone, and as the last person alive with capable cochlears (apparently), I am getting tuckered out.

Also nearly got found out RE Esther Krylon mtg with Lynne... Time for the patented Kitten-McMahon-No-Sell. :D

Still in love with Mrs. Foley's Baby Boy. Have a nice day!

11:24am

Things I hope to accomplish and/or sustain before I die:

• Remain active
• Refrain from routine bitterness
• Learn to have fun
• Try new things
• Remind myself of what I can and did do.

10:46am

Because I'm a shmuck, I came in to work on time. I could've easily waited till 11, used up some personal time, but oh no.
Luckily, the lib phone line is busted so no phone calls. It's nice.

Sent Mom and e-mail letting her know I didn't appreciate her dismissive replies to my e-mails of yesterday. I was gentle, but I get the distinct impression she will respond in an angry or callous way. (Her M.O. when her behavior is called into question.)

But on the upside, I have Fannie till 4:30, then hopefully home (empty), giordanos deep dish just for me, and a double feature: Mean Streets & Coco Before Chanel. So basically, a good day.

12:20am

Idée: Living out harshest anti-parent/child campaign.

**PS--not caring about being utterly frank.**

9:59am

I would love to be the voice of Siri.--FONTANA

3:03pm

Rappeler:

West of Memphis
The Sapphires
Enlightened
The Angels' Share
Girls: Season 2
Shameless: Season 3
Scatter My Ashes at Bergdorfs
Parks & Recreation: Season 5
Mad Men: Season 6
The Bling Ring
Lone Ranger
Only God Forgives
Not Fade Away

2:45pm

As of 10:43am, August Third Two Thousand Thirteen, all is well in Whoville. I shudder to jinx.

Plans to go hang with the CVG, invite to hang with the TMOK, lunch with Fanny, work okay, hmm!

Checked out the UWisc MFA page again, still no app ready. Tomorrow I'd like to have the entire draft edited and typed. :) <-- Note to self, smile.

Dunkin Donuts coffee this morning, Bricks Pizza with Fanny for lunch.

Rapped with Heidi, (sorry she's going, but happy for her too).

Realized an important thing I've been missing--when Fanny talked about singing and dancing last night, my first thought was, "you did it without me?" Meant to be sarcastic in theory, but I really meant it. Rather than being happy she enjoyed herself, dancing and singing; that she let it hang out and was triumphant. I did not say, "you did it without me?", I did say I was happy for her/blah blah, which I'm glad I did. But it illuminated to me that I haven't really been happy for others. That I don't rejoice in others' pleasure and lightness. What a damn lame.

PS--Jordy and Fontana, eh??? EH??? Claude, too. It's a regular Eiffel Tower up in here.

9:44am

Somehow, the chatter came to burqas.

(Which makes me wonder--if

9:03am

I'm verklempt; here, I'll give you a topic:

--Everyone loves to talk about how terribly other people drive
--Is an apology letter of any worth to the receiver, or only to the sender?

12:33am

What constitutes spinsterhood?

8:10pm

Contemplating an apology letter to a former acquaintance; cannot remember if I've already done this.