Wednesday, February 27, 2013

7:36pm

Did I commit the venial sin of selling out?

I asked Esther about her recent behavior toward me in a very subtle, non-confrontational type of way.  I didn't point out specific instances, I just asked her if we were okay.  She assured me we were and she wants me to just "be [myself]".  We'll see what happens.  I just couldn't pull the trigger and point blank parade her misdemeanors in front of her.  I just couldn't.  Why?

I believe I have a blood clot in my mouth.  This frightens me.  I would like to quit smoking.  I would like to be more active.

It's nice that I've not ganjed it up lately.  Recently I had a psychotic space-high where I suffered from raging racing thoughts and I was scared to death.  That was the last straw.

Saw Julie for the first time last night.  I really loved it.  I really like her.  She's a Knoxian, believe that! I have another appointment next week and I can't wait to blab at her again.

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