8:50pm

It's like I told you honey,

The mind is in Stars Hollow. This place is reminds of fall, the theatre of academia, the thrill of happy. A replica, unavailable.

This is the day I learned about "Fromunda Cheese".

12:12pm

To do today:

• Grad app organization
• Barbara? (Ask Julie)
• Laundry
• Edit story all the way through
• Read 50 pgs Panopticon
• grocery store(?)
• DDP
• OJ spot
• Clean room
• Vacuum
• Clean up papers
• dust
• Clear out crap for donation

7:15pm

Pictures of me with Til & ponies. I look like a fat butch fuck. Gross. How did I get this fat? Seriously?

11:48pm & 11:58pm

Panicking in the water. Feeling all the slights and pains and fights and passive aggression and open invitations to battle of my house. Songs are triggering. Dinner triggered. No, I should not have more cavatelli. It's almost midnight, goddammit.

MONTEZUMA//Fleet Foxes

Mom and Dad fighting on the eve of Mom's birthday. Poor Mom. But also, I hate this. I hate seeing my parents being so goddam stubborn and angry and at loggerheads. I feel guilty not being there. I feel guilty. I feel worthless. I feel like a Hefty hoping for just one rotten egg or bag of old lettuce to be tossed. Melodrama, I know.

I should just pee and be done with it.

7:58pm

I get the feeling my parents' marriage is not going to last.

I also do not know how to use apostrophes.

10:33am

Things I have to do today:

• DDP
• shower
• vacuum stairs
• get Moo's travel set
• make Moo CD
• make Moo zine
• get in touch with T&J RE tmm
• dinner at 5

Things I may do today

• clean
• grocery store
• cheeses
• taco fixins
• whiskey

Things I may do, but shouldn't:

• Forever 21
• Sephora
• Pretzel

4:10pm

Things to do with Norma Jean:

• Children's Museum 
• Popcorn Shop
• Lunch/Brunch/Breakfast
• movie?
• pottery (790-8200)

6:17pm

Things I am learning from Sugar:

• I am too high and too low. You loathe yourself, and yet you're consumed by the grandiose ideas you have about your own importance. You're up too high and down too low. Neither is the place where we get any work done. We get the work done on the ground level.
• That you're so bound up about writing tells me that writing is what you're here to do. And when people are here to do that, they almost always tell us something we need to hear. I want to know what you have inside you. I want to see the contours of your second beating heart.
• Write like a motherfucker.
• "Prestigious" comes from the Latin praestigiae, which means "conjuror's tricks."
• Mrs. CS has a neat way of coring the apple of my issues. Highly instructive and clear.

11:48pm

My weight is an unpleasant thing. What is it that makes me fear my own presence and gravity?

Feeling heavy with sorrow by my killing of a spider and a roly poly.

9:24PM LWA #1

Dear Real Miss,

Let me explain myself. My name is Kitten, and the Letter Writers Alliance gave me your information in hopes that we could become pen pals. My hope, too. I am from the suburbs of _______ and have been my whole life. I am 24. I am an employee of a local public library and an aspiring writer. I hope to go back to school to receive a masters degree in English: CW. My list of potential schools is... long. But my hopes are high.

As for Texas, I know just about nothing. Any features or stereotypes I know of the Lone Star is as follows: The Alamo, Selena, Stone Cold Steve Austin (and being a professional wrestling hotzone in general), King of the Hill, sweet tea, "Don't Mess With Texas". Obviously, I am quite ignorant. Have you lived there long? A friend of mine is considering moving to your neck of the woods, and due to the  vast wealth of stereotypes of the area, I wonder what Texas is really like? I know the different cities and regions are rich in culture and variation.

In closing, the only other news I can pass on is that I am freshly back from a second trip to Gettysburg National Military Park. I am a major Civil War history buff. Do you have any interest in the subject? Oh! I also love to read. Currently reading Shelby Foote's excerpt The Stars in Their Courses: The Gettysburg Campaign, (quel surprise, eh?) and The Road Out of Hell: The True Story of the Wineville Murders (on which the film Changeling is based). Any good book suggestions you can pass along would be much appreciated.

I'm looking forward to hearing from you, and I hope this letter finds you in good spirits!

Thank you & Cheers,
K

9:05pm

Feeling antsy pantsy and tight in the chest about Busy and our lack of relationship momentaneamente. This is what I get for going on facebook. Lucky for me, I rarely use it anymore.

But happily I am now watching Haunted History: Ghosts of Gettysburg. The day after I return from a week long trip to the Gettysburg National Military Park. GAH, this is my shit.

Also happily, I will write my inaugural pen pal letter to a brand new p.p. supplied to me by the LWA. Draft forthcoming.

1:51pm

More importantly, how may I rectify?

a) QUIT talking trash to untrustworthy people. Simple, eh?
b) In general, keep my lips zipped and,
c) Focus on doing my shit, and my shit alone.
d) Keep ego in check.


For starters.

1:09pm

I've sunk down to their level. I have engaged in gossip and backbiting. I have forsaken dignity. Why? Because it was easy and I let my emotions get in control.

4:22pm

Bore witness to one of the most gorgeous, handsome men I've ever seen. Phew.

Also concernicus that mes parents and BB will spill the beans to each other on my whereabouts over July 4th... Time will tell. Thank god I have pizza to bribe with.

1:04pm

Aujourd'hui, les tâches:

• Emissions test
• Grocery
• Write 
• Read
• Brazil
• Call poppy
• Gettysburg special
• Fat Burner